CDLXXIX (F IX, I5)
TO L. PAPIRIUS PAETUS (AT NAPLES)
ROME (SEPTEMBER)
I will answer two letters of yours: one which
I received four days ago from Zethus, a second
which your letter-carrier Phileros brought. From
your former letter I gathered that you were much
gratified by my anxiety about your health, and I
rejoice that you have been convinced of it. 1 But, believe me, you
will never see it in its full reality from a
letter. For though I perceive that I am being
sought out and liked by a considerable number of
people—a thing it is impossible for me
to deny—there is not one of them all
nearer to my heart than yourself. For that you love me, and have done so for a long
while and without interruption, is indeed a great
thing, or rather the greatest, but it is shared
with you by many: but that you are yourself so
lovable, so gracious, and so delightful in every
way—that you have all to yourself. Added
to that is your wit, not Attic, but more pungent
than that of the Attics, good Roman wit of the
true old city style. Now I—think what
you will of it—am astonishingly
attracted by witticisms, above all of the native
kind, especially when I see that they were first
infected by Latinism, when the foreign element
found its way into the city, and now-a-days by the
breeched 2 and Transalpine
tribes also, so that no trace of the old-fashioned
style of wit can be seen. Accordingly when I see
you, I seem—to confess the
truth—to see all the Granii, the
Lucilii, as well as the Crassi and Laelii. Upon my
life, I have no one left but you in whom I can
recognize any likeness of the old racy
cheerfulness. And when to these graces of wit
there is added your strong affection for me, do
you wonder that I have been so severely alarmed at
so grave a blow to your health? In your second letter you say in
self-defence that you did not advise me against
the purchase at Naples, 3 but recommended caution.
You put it politely, and I did not regard it in
any other fight. However, I gathered the same idea
as I do from this letter, that you did not think
it open to me to take the course which I thought I
might-namely, to abandon politics here, not indeed
entirely, but to a great extent. You quote Catulus
and all that period. 4 Where is the analogy? I did
not myself at that time desire to absent myself
for any length of time from the guardianship of
the constitution: for I was sitting at the helm
and holding the rudder; whereas now I have
scarcely a place in the hold. Do you suppose the
number of senatorial decrees will be any the less
if I am at Naples? While I am at Rome and actually haunting the forum, senatorial
decrees are written out in the house of your
admirer, my intimate friend. 5 And whenever it occurs to
him, I am put down as backing a decree, and am
informed of its having reached Armenia and Syria,
professing to have been made in accordance with my
vote, before any mention has been made of the
business at all. 6 And, indeed, I would
not have you think that I am joking about this;
for I assure you I have had letters from kings at
the other end of the earth, thanking me for having
voted for giving them the royal title, as to whom
I was not only ignorant of their having been
called kings, but of their very existence even.
What, then, am I to do? After all, as long as this
friend of ours-this guardian of morals 7 —is here, I will follow
your advice: but directly he goes away I am off to
your mushrooms. If I have a house there, I will
make the expenses allowed for a day by the
sumptuary law last over ten days. But if I don't
find anything to suit me, I have made up my mind
to reside with you: for I know I could not please
you more. I am beginning to despair of Sulla's
house, as I told you in my last, but I have not,
after all, quite given it up. Pray do what you
suggest, inspect it with some builders. If there
is no defect in walls or roof, the rest will meet
my views very well.
ROME (SEPTEMBER)