The only association I have with my old home in Virginia
that is not one of unmixed happiness relates to the time immediately succeeding the execution of John Brown
at Harper's Ferry
Our homestead was in Fairfax
, at a considerable distance from the theater of that tragic episode; and, belonging as we did to a family among the first in the State
to manumit slaves,--our grandfather having set free those that came to him by inheritance, and the people who served us being hired from their owners and remaining in our employ through years of kindliest relations,there seemed to be no especial reason for us to share in the apprehension of an uprising of the blacks.
But there was the fear — unspoken, or pooh-poohed at by the men who were mouth-pieces for our community-dark, boding, oppressive, and altogether hateful.
I can remember taking it to bed with me at night, and awaking suddenly oftentimes to confront it through a vigil of nervous terror, of which it never occurred to me to speak to any one.
The notes of whip-poor-wills in the sweet-gum swamp near the stable, the mutterings of a distant thunder-storm, even the rustle of the night wind in the oaks that shaded my window, filled me with nameless dread.
In the daytime it seemed impossible to associate suspicion with those familiar tawny or sable faces that surrounded us. We had seen them for so many years smiling or saddening with the family joys or sorrows; they were so guileless, so patient, so satisfied.
What subtle influence was at work that should transform them into tigers thirsting for our blood?
The idea was preposterous.
But when evening came again, and with it the hour when the colored people (who in summer
weather kept astir half the night) assembled themselves together for dance or prayer-meeting, the ghost that refused to be laid was again at one's elbow.
Rusty bolts were drawn and rusty fire-arms loaded.
A watch was set where never before had eye or ear been lent to such a service.
In short, peace had flown from the borders of Virginia
Although the newspapers were full of secession talk and the matter was eagerly discussed at our tables, I cannot remember that, as late as Christmastime of the year 1860, coming events had cast any definite shadow on our homes.
The people in our neighborhood, of one opinion with their dear and honored friend, Colonel Robert E. Lee
, of Arlington
, were slow to accept the startling suggestion of disruption of the Union
At any rate, we enjoyed the usual holiday gathering of kinsfolk in the usual fashion.
The old Vaucluse house, known for many years past as a center of cheerful hospitality in the county, threw wide open its doors to receive all the members who could be gathered there of a large family circle.
The woods about were despoiled of
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holly and spruce, pine and cedar, to deck the walls and wreathe the picture-frames.
On Christmas Eve we had a grand rally of youths and boys belonging to the “clan,” as they loved to call it, to roll in a yule log, which was deposited upon a glowing bed of coals in the big “red-parlor” fire-place, and sit about it afterward, welcoming the Christmas in with goblets of egg-nog and apple-toddy.
“Where shall we be a year hence?”
some one asked at a pause in the merry chat; and, in the brief silence that followed, arose a sudden spectral thought of war. All felt its presence; no one cared to speak first of its grim possibilities.
On Christmas Eve of the following year the old house lay in ruins, a sacrifice by Union troops to military necessity; the forest giants that kept watch around her walls had been cut down and made to serve as breastworks for a fort erected on the Vaucluse property as part of the defenses of Washington.
Of the young men and boys who took part in that holiday festivity, all were in the active service of the South
,--one of them, alas!
soon to fall under a rain of shot and shell beside his gun at Fredericksburg
; the youngest of the number had left his mother's knee to fight at Manassas
, and found himself, before the year was out, a midshipman aboard the Confederate steamer Nashville
, on her cruise in distant seas!
My first vivid impression of war-days was, during a ramble in the neighboring woods one Sunday afternoon in spring, when the young people in a happy band set out in search of wild flowers.
Pink honeysuckles, blue lupine, beds of fairy flax, anemones, and ferns in abundance sprung under
the canopy of young leaves on the forest boughs, and the air was full of the song of birds and the music of running waters.
We knew every mossy path far and near in those woods; every tree had been watched and cherished by those who went before us, and dearer than any other spot on earth was our tranquil, sweet Vaucluse
Suddenly the shrill whistle of a locomotive struck the ear, an unwonted sound on Sunday.
“Do you know what that means?”
said one of the older cousins who accompanied the party.
“It is the special train carrying Alexandria
volunteers to Manassas
, and to-morrow I shall follow with my company.”
Silence fell upon our little band.
A cloud seemed to come between us and the sun. It was the beginning of the end too soon to come.
The story of one broken circle is the story of another at the outset of such a war. Before the week was over, the scattering of our household, which no one then believed to be more than temporary, had begun.
Living as we did upon ground likely to be in the track of armies gathering to confront each other, it was deemed advisable to send the children and young girls into a place more remote from chances of danger.
Some weeks later the heads of the household, two widowed sisters whose sons were at Manassas
, drove away from their home in their carriage at early morning, having spent the previous night in company with a half-grown lad digging in the cellar hasty graves for the interment of two boxes of old English silver-ware
, heirlooms in the family, for which there was no time to provide otherwise.
Although the enemy were long encamped immediately above it after the house was burnt the following year, this silver was found there when the war had ended; it was lying lose in the earth, the boxes having rotted away.
The point at which our family reunited within the Confederate
lines was Bristoe
, the station next beyond Manassas
, a cheerless railway inn; a part of the premises was used as a country grocery store; and there quarters were secured for us with a view to being near the army.
By this time all our kith and kin of fighting age had joined the volunteers.
One cannot picture accommodations more forlorn than these eagerly taken for us and for other families attracted to Bristoe
by the same powerful magnet.
The summer sun poured its burning rays upon whitewashed walls unshaded by a tree.
Our bedrooms were almost uninhabitable by day or night, our fare the plainest.
From the windows we beheld only a flat, uncultivated country, crossed by red-clay roads, then ankle-deep in dust.
We learned to look for all excitement to the glittering lines of railway track, along which continually thundered trains bound to and from the front.
It was impossible to allow such a train to pass without running out upon the platform to salute it, for in this way we greeted many an old friend or relative buttoned up in the smart gray uniform, speeding with high hope to the scene of coming conflict.
Such shouts as went up from sturdy throats while we stood waving hands, handkerchiefs, or the rough woolen garments we were at work upon!
Then fairly awoke the spirit that made of Southern women the inspiration of Southern men throughout the war. Most of the young fellows we knew and were cheering onward wore the uniform of privates, and for the right to wear it had left homes of
ease and luxury.
To such we gave our best homage; and from that time forth the youth who was lukewarm in the cause or unambitious of military glory fared uncomfortably in the presence of the average Confederate maiden.
Thanks to our own carriage, we were able during those rallying days of June to drive frequently to visit “the boys” in camp, timing the expeditions to include battalion drill and dress parade, and taking tea afterward in the different tents.
Then were the gala days of war, and our proud hosts hastened to produce home dainties dispatched from the far-away plantations tears and blessings interspersed amid the packing, we were sure; though I have seen a pretty girl persist in declining other fare, to make her meal upon raw biscuit and huckleberry pie compounded by the bright-eyed amateur cook of a well-beloved mess.
Feminine heroism could no farther go.
And so the days wore on until the 17th of July, when a rumor from the front sent an electric shock through our circle.
The enemy were moving forward!
On the morning of the 18th those who had been able to sleep at all awoke early to listen for the first guns of the engagement of Blackburn's Ford.
Abandoned as the women at Bristoe
were by every male creature old enough to gather news, there was, for us, no way of knowing the progress of events during the long, long day of waiting, of watching, of weeping, of praying, of rushing out upon the railway track to walk as far as we dared in the direction whence came that intolerable booming of artillery.
The cloud of dun smoke arising over Manassas
became heavier in volume as the day progressed.
Still, not a word of tidings, till toward afternoon there came limping
up a single, very dirty, soldier with his arm in a sling.
What a heaven-send he was, if only as an escape-valve for our pent — up sympathies!
We seized him, we washed him, we cried over him, we glorified him until the man was fairly bewildered.
Our best endeavors could only develop a pin-scratch of a wound on his right hand; but when our hero had laid in a substantial meal of bread and meat, we plied him with trembling questions, each asking news of some staff or regiment or company.
It has since occurred to me that he was a humorist in disguise.
His invariable reply, as he looked from one to the other of his satellites, was: “The — Virginia
Why, of coase.
They warn't no two ways o‘ thinkin ‘bout that ar regiment.
They just kivered
tharselves with glory!”
A little later two wagonloads of slightly wounded claimed our care, and with them came authentic news of the day. Most of us received notes on paper torn
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from a soldier's pocket-book and grimed with gunpowder, containing assurance of the safety of our own. At nightfall a train carrying more wounded to the hospitals at Culpeper
made a halt at Bristoe
; and, preceded by men holding lanterns, we went in among the stretchers with milk, food, and water to the sufferers.
One of the first discoveries I made, bending over in that fitful light, was a young officer whom I knew to be a special object of solicitude with one of my comrades in the search; but he was badly hurt, and neither he nor she knew the other was near until the train had moved on. The next day, and the next, were full of burning excitement over the impending general engagement, which people then said would decide the fate of the young Confederacy.
Fresh troops came by with every train, and we lived only to turn from one scene to another of welcome and farewell.
On Saturday evening arrived a message from General Beauregard
, saying that early on Sunday an engine and car would be put at our disposal, to take us to some point more remote from danger.
We looked at one another, and, tacitly agreeing the gallant general had sent not an order but a suggestion, declined his kind proposal.
Another unspeakably long day, full of the straining anguish of suspense.
Dawning bright and fair, it closed under a sky darkened by cannon-smoke.
The roar of guns seemed never to cease.
First, a long sullen boom; then a sharper rattling fire, painfully distinct; then stragglers from the field, with varying rumors; at last, the news of victory; and, as before, the wounded, to force our numbed faculties into service.
One of our group, the mother of
an only son barely fifteen years of age, heard that her boy, after being in action all the early part of the day, had through sheer fatigue fallen asleep upon the ground, where he was found resting peacefully amidst the roar of the guns.
A few days later we rode over the field.
The trampled grass had begun to spring again, and wild flowers were blooming around carelessly made graves.
From one of these imperfect mounds of clay I saw a hand extended; and when, years afterward, I visited the tomb of Rousseau
beneath the Pantheon in Paris
, where a sculptured hand bearing a torch protrudes from the sarcophagus, I thought of that mournful spectacle upon the field of Manassas
Fences were everywhere thrown down; the undergrowth of the woods was riddled with shot; here and there we came upon spiked guns, disabled gun-carriages, cannon-balls, blood-stained blankets, and dead horses.
We were glad enough to turn away and gallop homeward.
With August heats and lack of water, Bristoe
was forsaken for quarters near Culpeper
, where my mother went into the soldiers' barracks, sharing soldiers' accommodations, to nurse the wounded.
In September quite a party of us, upon invitation, visited the different headquarters.
We stopped overnight at Manassas
, five ladies, sleeping upon a couch made of rolls of cartridge-flannel, in a tent guarded by a faithful sentry.
I remember the comical effect of the five bird-cages (of a kind without which no self-respecting young woman of that day would present herself in public) suspended upon a line running across the upper part of our tent, after we had reluctantly removed them in order to adjust ourselves for repose.
Our progress during that memorable visit was royal; an ambulance with a picked troop of cavalrymen had been placed at our service, and the convoy was “personally conducted” by a pleasing variety of distinguished officers.
It was at this time, after a supper at the headquarters of the “Maryland line
” at Fairfax
, that the afterward universal war-song, My Maryland!
was put afloat upon the tide of army favor.
We were sitting outside a tent in the warm starlight of an early autumn night, when music was proposed.
At once we struck up Randall
's verses to the tune of the old college song, Lauriger Horatius,
--a young lady of the party, Jennie Cary
, of Baltimore
, having recently set them to this music before leaving home to share the fortunes of the Confederacy
All joined in the ringing chorus; and, when we finished, a burst of applause came from some soldiers listening in the darkness behind a belt of trees.
Next day the melody was hummed far and near through the camps, and in due time it had gained the place of favorite song in the army.
Other songs sung that evening, which afterward had a great vogue, were one beginning “By blue Patapsco's billowy dash,” and “The years glide slowly by, Lorena.”
Another incident of note, during the autumn of ‘61, was that to my cousins, Hetty and Jennie Cary
, and to me was intrusted the making of the first three battle-flags of the Confederacy
They were jaunty squares of scarlet crossed with dark blue edged with white, the cross bearing stars to indicate the number of the seceded States.
We set our best stitches upon them, edged them with golden fringes, and, when they were finished, dispatched one to Johnston
, another to Beauregard
, and the third to Earl Van Dorn
commanding infantry at Manassas
The banners were received with all possible enthusiasm; were toasted, feted, and cheered abundantly.
After two years, when Van Dorn
had been killed in Tennessee
, mine came back to me, tattered and storm-stained from long and honorable service in the field.
But it was only a little while after it had been bestowed that there arrived one day at our lodgings in Culpeper
a huge, bashful Mississippi
scout,--one of the most daring in the army,--with the frame of a Hercules and the face of a child.
He had been bidden to come there by his general, he said, to ask, if I would not give him an order to fetch some cherished object from my dear old home — something that would prove to me “how much they thought of the maker of that flag!”
A week later I was the astonished recipient of a lamented bit of finery left “within the lines,” a wrap, brought to us by Dillon
himself, with a beaming face.
Mounted on a load of fire-wood, he had gone through the Union
pickets, and while peddling poultry had presented himself at the house of my uncle, Dr. Fairfax
, in Alexandria
, whence he carried off his prize in triumph, with a letter in its folds telling us how relatives left behind longed to be sharing the joys and sorrows of those at large in the Confederacy