record . . . of all my official acts. . . . To say that I have not been distressed . . . would be false. . . . One thing I will assure you of, however: I cannot be driven from rendering the best service within my ability to suppress the present rebellion.”
And to his father he wrote: “You must not expect me to write in my own defence, nor to permit it from any one about me. I know that the feeling of the troops under my command is favourable to me; and, so long as I continue to do my duty faithfully, it will remain so. I require no defenders.”
Nevertheless, his spirit was near being broken.
He had nothing given him to do. He was in a sort of disgrace.
There seemed no outlook.
had removed his willing hand from the plough.
he had applied for a thirty days leave, when Sherman
, his good friend, suspected that all was not well with him. “I inquired for the general,” says Sherman
, “and was shown ”