for believing that he never felt disappointed in his trust and confidence.
knew me much better, having been my immediate commander in Missouri
in 1861 and 1862.
Although on one or two occasions he seemed a little harsh in respect to unimportant matters, he was uniformly kind, considerate, and unwavering in his personal and official support.
The Secretary of War
, Mr. Stanton
, expressed his confidence and approval; said he was opposed to any change; that it was the President
's affair, with which he had nothing to do. I got the impression that he regarded the whole scheme as a political one, in which he took no interest, and with which he felt no sympathy.
In St. Louis
I met General Grant
, who was then so soon to be assigned to the command of ‘all the armies of the United States
,’ and for the first time really became acquainted with him. We were together much of the time for several days and nights.
The citizens of St. Louis
entertained the general in a most magnificent manner.
At a grand banquet given in his honor, at which I sat on his right, he did not even touch one of the many glasses of wine placed by the side of his plate.
At length I ventured to remark that he had not tasted his wine.
He replied: ‘I dare not touch it. Sometimes I can drink freely without any unpleasant effect; at others I cannot take even a single glass of light wine.’
A strong man, indeed, who could thus know and govern his own weakness!
In reply to the toast in his honor, he merely arose and bowed without saying a word.
Then turning to me, he said it was simply impossible for him to utter a word when on his feet.
As is well known, the great general finally overcame his reserve.
It was very difficult for me to comprehend the political necessity which compelled Mr. Lincoln
to give his official countenance to such men as Lane