never have done what I have done — should never have studied philosophy, nor written what I have written.
My life would have been more natural and passionate, but I think less valuable.
Yet I cannot but regret the privation of this element in which I have lived for years.
But I do believe that music is the most expensive of the fine arts.
It uses up the whole man more than the other arts do, and builds him up less.
It is more passional, less intellectual, than the other arts.
Its mastery is simple and absolute, while that of the other arts is so complex as to involve a larger sphere of thought and reflection.
I have observed the faces of this orchestra just disbanded.
Their average is considerably above the ordinary one.
But they have probably more talent than thought.”
On May 31 we find a significant entry.
The evening before she had attended the Unitarian Convention
, and “heard much tolerable speaking, but nothing of any special value or importance.”
She now writes:--
“I really suffered last evening from the crowd of things which I wished to say, and which, at one word of command, would have flashed into life and, I think, into eloquence.
It is by a fine use of natural logic that the Quaker
denomination allows women to speak, under the pressure of religious conviction.
‘In Christ Jesus there is neither male nor female,’ is a good sentence.
did not carry this out in his church discipline, yet, one sees, he felt it in his religious contemplation.
I feel that a woman's whole moral responsibility is lowered by the fact that she must never obey a transcendent command of conscience.