Her first sermon was preached at Harrisburg
Then followed the sermons in Santo Domingo
, and those of the Peace Crusade
; from this time, the Woman Ministry
was one of the causes dearest to her heart.
The Journal from now on contains many texts and notes for sermons.
In 1871, “What the lost things are which the Son of Man came to save, lost values, lost jewels, darkened souls, scattered powers, lost opportunities.”
A year later: “Preached in the afternoon at the South Portsmouth meetinghouse.
Text, ‘I will arise and go unto my father.’
Subject: ‘The Fatherhood of God.’
I did as well as usual.... In the evening my text was: ‘Abide in me and I in you,’ etc., but I was at one moment so overcome with fatigue that the whole thread of my discourse escaped me. I paused for a moment, excused myself briefly to the congregation, and was fortunate enough to seize the thread of my discourse again, and got through quite well.
I felt this very much,--the fear of failure, I mean.
The fatigue was great and my brain felt it much.
My daemon told me beforehand that I could not repeat this sermon and had better read it. I shall believe him next time.
This is a difficult point, to know how far to trust the daemon.
He is not to be implicitly trusted, nor yet to be neglected.
In these days I am forced to review the folly and shortcomings of my life.
My riper reason shows me a sad record of follies and of faults.
I seem to sit by and listen sadly; no chastening for the present is joyous but grievous.”
“Sunday, September 29
. Reverend Mrs. Gustine