since life now means work of my best sort, and I value little else, except the comfort of my family.
Now for a little rest!”
The “rest” of the following day consisted in paying eight visits between twelve and two o'clock and going to the opera in the evening.
She now began to read her philosophical essays aloud to a chosen circle of friends gathered in the parlor of No. 13 Chestnut Street. After one of these occasions she says: “Professor Rogers
took me up sharply (not in temper), on my first statement and definition of Polarity.
I suffered in this, but was bound to take it in good part.
A thoroughbred dog can bear to be lifted by the ear without squealing.
Endurance is a test of breeding... .”
“May 27, 1864
. My birthday; forty-five years old. This year, begun in intolerable distress, has been, I think, the most valuable one of my life.
Paralyzed at first by Sammy's death, I soon found my only refuge from grief in increased activity after my kind.
When he died I had written two-thirds of ‘Proteus
As soon as I was able, I wrote the remaining portion which treats of affection.
I wrote my Introductory Lecture on ‘How Not
to Teach Ethics,’ then ‘Duality of Character,’ then my first Lecture on Religion.
Returned from Newport
, I wrote my second and third essays on Religion.
I read the six essays of my first course to a large circle of friends at my own house, not asking any payment.
This done, I began to write a long essay on Polarity which is only partially completed, intending also to write on Limitations ”