When there was so much at stake, it was not unnatural that persons entirely ignorant of the facts, and forming their opinions from the many false reports set afloat in a time of terrible war and public suffering, should pass erroneous and severe judgments on those commanders who met with reverses.
I was not embraced in the terms of General Lee
's surrender or that of General Johnston
, and, as the order relieving me from command had also relieved me from all embarrassment as to the troops which had been under me, as soon as I was in a condition to travel, I started on horseback for the Trans-Mississippi Department to join the army of General Kirby Smith
, should it hold out; with the hope of at least meeting an honorable death while fighting under the flag of my country.
Before I reached that Department, Smith
's army had also been surrendered, and, without giving a parole, after a long, weary and dangerous ride from Virginia
, through the states of North Carolina
, South Carolina
, and Texas
, I finally succeeded in leaving the country.