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But still I did not spend much time in weeping. I
was afraid that Menelaus the tutor1 might increase my
troubles by finding me alone in the lodgings, so I got together my bundles and took
a room in a remote place right on the beach. I shut myself up there for three days;
I was haunted by the thought that I was deserted and despised; I beat my breast,
already worn with blows, groaned deeply and even cried aloud many[p. 163]
times, Could not the earth have opened and swallowed me, or the sea that shows her
anger even against the innocent? I fled from justice, I cheated the ring, I killed
my host, and with all these badges of courage I am left forsaken in lodgings in a
Greek town, a beggar and an exile. And who condemned me to loneliness? A young man
tainted by excess of every kind, deserving banishment even by his own admission, a
free, yes, a free-born debauchee; his youth was wasted in gambling, and even those
who supposed him to be a man treated him like a girl. And his friend? A boy who went
into skirts instead of trousers, whose mother persuaded him never to grow up, who
was the common sport of the slaves' quarters, who after going bankrupt, and changing
the tune of his vices, has broken the ties of an old friendship, and shamelessly
sold everything in a single night's work like a common woman. Now the lovers lie all
night long in each other's arms, and very likely laugh at my loneliness when they
are tired out. But they shall suffer for it. I am no man, and no free citizen, if I
do not avenge my wrongs with their hateful blood."
1 See p. 37 note.
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