On the line of a scattered fence at Antietam.
From a photograph.|
our corps — the Ninth, under Burnside
— was on the extreme left, opposite the stone bridge.
Our brigade stole into position about half-past 10 o'clock on the night of the 16th.
No W. lights were permitted, and all conversation was carried on in whispers.
As the regiment was moving past the 103d New York to get to its place, there occurred, on a small scale and without serious results, one of those unaccountable panics often noticed in crowds, by which each man, however brave individually, merges his individuality for the moment, and surrenders to an utterly causeless fear.
When everything was at its darkest and stealthiest one of the 103d stumbled over the regimental dog, and, in trying to avoid treading on it, staggered against a stack of muskets and knocked them over.
The giving way of the two or three men upon whom they fell was communicated to others in a sort of wave movement of constantly increasing magnitude, reinforced by the ever-present apprehension of attack, till two regiments were in confusion.
In a few seconds order was restored, and we went on to our place in the line — a field of thin corn sloping toward the creek, where we sat down on the plowed ground and watched for a while the dull glare on the sky of the Confederate
camp-fires behind the hills.
We were hungry, of course, but, as no fires were allowed, we could only mix our ground coffee
and sugar in our hands and eat them dry. I think we were the more easily inclined to this crude disposal of our rations from a feeling that for many of us the need of drawing them would cease forever with the following day.
All through the evening the shifting and placing had gone on, the moving masses being dimly descried in the strange half lights of earth and sky. There was something weirdly impressive yet unreal in the gradual drawing together of those whispering armies under cover of the night — something of awe and dread, as always in the secret preparation for momentous deeds.
By 11 o'clock the whole line, four miles or more in length, was sleeping, each corps apprised of its appointed task, each battery in place.
It is astonishing how soon, and by what slight causes, regularity of formation and movement are lost in actual battle.
Disintegration begins with the first shot.
To the book-soldier all order seems destroyed, months of drill apparently going for nothing in a few minutes.
Next after the most powerful factor in this derangement — the enemy — come natural obstacles and the inequalities of the ground.
One of the commonest is a patch of trees.
An advancing line lags there inevitably, the rest of the line swinging around insensibly, with the view of keeping the alignment, and so losing direction.
The struggle for the possession of such a point is sure to be persistent.
Wounded men crawl to a wood for shelter, broken troops reform behind it, a battery planted in its edge will stick there after other parts of the line have given way. Often a slight rise of ground in an open field, not noticeable a thousand yards away, becomes, in the keep of a stubborn regiment, a powerful head-land against which the waves of battle roll and break, requiring new dispositions and much time to clear it. A stronger fortress than a casual railroad embankment often proves, it would be difficult to find; and as for a sunken road, what possibilities of victory or disaster lie in that obstruction, let Waterloo
it was a low, rocky ledge, prefaced by a corn-field.
There were woods, too, and knolls, and there were other corn-fields; but the student of that battle knows one corn-field only--the
corn-field, now historic, lying a quarter of a mile north of Dunker Church, and east of and bordering the Hagerstown
About it and across it, to and fro, the waves of battle swung almost from the first, till by 10 o'clock in the
morning, when the struggle was over, hundreds of men lay dead among its peaceful blades.
While these things were happening on the right, the left was not without its excitement.
A Confederate battery discovered our position in our corn-field, as soon as it was light enough to see, and began to shell us. As the range became better we were moved back and ordered to boil coffee in the protection of a hollow.
The general plan of battle appears to have been to break through the Confederate
left, following up the advantage with a constantly increasing force, sweep him away from the fords, and so crowd his whole army down into the narrow peninsula formed by the Potomac and Antietam Creek
Even. the non-military eye, however, can see that the tendency of such a plan would be to bring the two armies upon concentric arcs, the inner and shorter of which must be held by the enemy, affording him the opportunity for reinforcement by interior lines — an immense advantage only to be counteracted by the utmost activity on our part, who must attack vigorously where attacking at all, and where not, imminently threaten.
Certainly there was no imminence in the threat of our center or left — none whatever of the left, only a vague consciousness of whose existence even seems to have been in the enemy's mind, for he flouted us all the morning with hardly more than a meager skirmish line, while his coming troops, as fast as they arrived upon the ground, were sent off to the Dunker Church.
So the morning wore away, and the fighting on the right ceased entirely.
That was fresh anxiety — the scales were turning perhaps, but which way?
About noon the battle began afresh.
This must have been Franklin
's men of the Sixth Corps, for the firing was nearer, and they came up behind the center.
Suddenly a stir beginning far up on the right, and running like a wave along the line, brought the regiment to its feet.
A silence fell on every one at once, for each felt that the momentous “now” had come.
Just as we started I saw, with a little shock, a line-officer take out his watch to note the hour, as though the affair beyond the creek were a business appointment which he was going to keep.
When we reached the brow of the hill the fringe of trees along the creek screened the fighting entirely, and we were deployed as skirmishers under their cover.
We sat there two hours. All that time the rest of the corps had been moving over the stone bridge and going into position on the other side of the creek.
Then we were ordered over at a ford which had been found below the bridge, where the water was waist-deep.
One man was shot in mid-stream.
At the foot of the slope on the opposite side the line was formed and we moved up through the thin woods.
Reaching the level we lay down behind a battery which seemed to have been disabled.
There, if anywhere, I should have remembered that I was soaking wet from my waist down.
So great was the excitement, however, that I have never been able to recall it. Here some of the men, going to the rear for water, discovered in the ashes of some hay-ricks which had been fired by our shells the charred remains of several Confederates.
After long waiting it became noised along the line that we were to take a battery that was at work several hundred yards ahead on the top of a hill.
This narrowed the field and brought us to consider the work before us more attentively.
Right across our front, two hundred feet or so away, ran a country road bordered on each side by a snake fence.
Beyond this road stretched a plowed field several hundred feet in length, sloping up to the battery, which was hidden in a corn-field.
A stone fence, breast-high, inclosed the field on the left, and behind it lay a regiment of Confederates, who would be directly on our flank if we should attempt the slope.
The prospect was far from encouraging, but the order came to get ready for the attempt.
Our knapsacks were left on the ground behind us. At the word a rush was made for the fences.
The line was so disordered by the time the second fence was passed that we hurried forward to a shallow undulation a few feet ahead, and lay down among the furrows to re-form, doing so by crawling up into line.
A hundred feet or so ahead was a similar undulation to which we ran for a second shelter.
The battery, which at first had not seemed to notice us, now, apprised of its danger, opened fire upon us. We were getting ready now for the charge proper, but were still lying on our faces.
was ramping up and down the line.
The discreet regiment behind the fence was silent.
Now and then a bullet from them cut the air over our heads, but generally they were reserving their fire for that better shot which they knew they would get in a few minutes.
The battery, however, whose shots at first went over our heads, had depressed its guns so as to shave the surface of the ground.
Its fire was beginning to tell.
I remember looking behind and seeing an officer riding diagonally across the field — a most inviting target — instinctively bending his head down over his horse's neck, as though he were riding through driving rain.
While my eye was on him I saw, between me and him, a rolled overcoat with its straps on bound into the air and fall among the furrows.
One of the enemy's grape-shot had plowed a groove in the skull of a young fellow and had cut his overcoat from his shoulders.
He never stirred from his position, but lay there face downward — a dreadful spectacle.
A moment after, I heard a man cursing a comrade for lying on him heavily.
He was cursing a dying man. As the range grew better, the firing became more rapid, the situation desperate and exasperating to the last degree.
Human nature was on the rack, and there burst forth from it the most vehement, terrible swearing I have ever heard.
Certainly the joy of conflict was not ours that day. The suspe nse was only for a moment, however, for the order to charge came just after.
Whether the regiment was thrown into disorder or not, I never knew.
I only remember that as we rose and started all the fire that had been held back so long was loosed.
In a second the air was full of the hiss of bullets and the hurtle of grape-shot.
The mental strain was
so great that I saw at that moment the singular effect mentioned, I think, in the life of Goethe
on a similar occasion — the whole landscape for an instant turned slightly red. I see again, as I saw it then in a flash, a man just in front of me drop his musket and throw up his hands, stung into vigorous swearing by a bullet behind the ear. Many men fell going up the hill, but it seemed to be all over in a moment, and I found myself passing a hollow where a dozen wounded men lay--
among them our sergeant-major, who was calling me to come down.
He had caught sight of the blanket rolled across my back, and called me to unroll it and help to carry from the field one of our wounded lieutenants.
When I returned from obeying this summons the regiment (?) was not to be seen.
It had gone in on the run, what there was left of it, and had disappeared in the corn-field about the battery.
There was nothing to do but lie there and await developments.
Nearly all the men in the hollow were wounded, one man — a recruit named Devlin
, I think — frightfully so, his arm being cut short off. He lived a few minutes only.
All were calling for water, of course, but none was to be had. We lay there till dusk,--perhaps an hour, when the fighting ceased.
During that hour, while the bullets snipped the leaves from a young locust-tree growing at the edge of the hollow and powdered us with the fragments, we had time to speculate on many things — among others, on the impatience with which men clamor, in dull times, to be led into a fight.
We heard all through the war that the army “was eager to be led against the enemy.”
It must have been so, for truthful correspondents said so, and editors confirmed it. But when you came to hunt for this particular itch, it was always the next regiment that had it. The truth is, when bullets are whacking against tree-trunks and solid shot are cracking skulls like egg-shells, the consuming passion in the breast of the average man is to get out of the way. Between the physical fear of going forward and the moral fear of turning back, there is a predicament of exceptional awkwardness from which a hidden hole in the ground would be a wonderfully welcome outlet.
Night fell, preventing further struggle.
Of 600 men of the regiment who crossed the creek at 3 o'clock that afternoon, 45 were killed and 176 wounded. The Confederates held possession of that part of the field over which we had moved, and just after dusk they sent out detachments to collect arms and bring in prisoners.
When they came to our hollow all the unwounded and slightly wounded there were marched to the rear — prisoners of the 15th Georgia.
We slept on the ground that night without protection of any kind; for, with a recklessness quite common throughout the war, we had thrown away every incumbrance on going into the fight.
The weather, however, was warm and pleasant, and there was little discomfort.
The next morning we were marched — about six hundred of us, fragments of a dozen different commands — to the Potomac
, passing through Sharpsburg
We crossed the Potomac
by the Shepherdstown ford
, and bivouacked in the yard of a house near the river, remaining there all day. The next morning (the 19th) shells began to come from over the river, and we were started on the road to Richmond
with a mixed guard of cavalry and infantry.
When we reached Winchester
we were quartered for a night in the court-house yard, where we were beset by a motley crew who were eager to exchange the produce of the region for greenbacks.
On the road between Shepherdstown
we fell in with the Maryland Battalion--a meeting I have always remembered with pleasure.
They were marching to the front by companies, spaced apart about 300 or 400 feet. We were an ungainly, draggled lot, about as far removed as well could be from any claim to ceremonious courtesy; yet each company, as it passed, gave us the military salute of shouldered arms.
They were noticeable, at that early stage of the war, as the only organization we saw that wore the regulation Confederate gray, all other troops having assumed a sort of revised regulation uniform of homespun butternut — a significant witness, we thought, to the efficacy of the blockade.
we were marched to Staunton
, where we were put on board cattle-cars and forwarded at night, by way of Gordonsville
, to Richmond
, where we entered Libby Prison.
We were not treated with special severity, for Libby
was not at that time the hissing it afterward became.
Our time there, also, was not long.
Only nine days after we entered it we were sent away, going by steamer to Camp Parole
, at Annapolis
From that place I went home without ceremony, reporting my address to my company officers.
Three weeks afterward they advised me that I was exchanged — which meant that I was again, legally and technically, food for powder.