Speed when the latter started on his journey from Illinois
It bears no date, but was handed him January 1, 1842, as Speed has testified, in another letter to me, that he left Springfield
on that day. It is full of consolation and advise how best to conduct himself when the periods of gloom which he feels sure will follow come upon his friend.
“I know,” he says, “what the painful point with you is at all times when you are unhappy; it is an apprehension that you do not love her as you should.
How came you to court her? . . . Did you court her for her wealth?
Why, you say she had none.
But you say you reasoned yourself into it. What do you mean by that?
Was it not that you found yourself unable to reason yourself out of it?
Did you not think, and partly form the purpose, of courting her the first time you ever saw her or heard of her?
What had reason to do with it at that early stage?
There was nothing at that time for reason to work upon.
Whether she was moral, amiable, sensible, or even of good character, you did not nor could then know, except perhaps you might infer the last from the company you found her in. . . . Say candidly, were not those heavenly black eyes the whole basis of all of your reasoning on the subject?
After you and I had once been at the residence, did you not go and take me all the way to Lexington
and back for no other purpose but to get to see her again on our return on that evening to take a trip for that express object?”
The next paragraph is significant as affording us