far short of my conception of it. I shall try to rewrite much of the Essay.”
The Journal of 1864 is a quarto volume, with a full page for every day. There are many blank pages, but the record is much fuller than heretofore.
. Worked all the afternoon at my Essay on Distinction between Philosophy and Religion.
Got a bad feeling from fatigue.
A sort of trembling agony in my back and left side.”
Yet she went to the opera in the evening, and saw “Faust,” a “composition with more faults than merits.”
She concludes the entry with “Dilige et relinque
is a good motto for some things.”
“Sunday, January 17
. It was announced from the pulpit that an Essay on the Soul and Body would be read by a friend at Wednesday evening meeting.
That friend was myself, that essay my Lecture on Duality.
This would be an honor, but for my ill-deserts.
Be witness, O God!
that this is no imaginary or sentimental exclamation, but a feeling too well founded on fact.”
After the lecture she writes: “Mr. Clarke
introduced me charmingly.
I wore my white cap, not wishing to read in my thick bonnet.
I had quite a full audience. ... I consider this opportunity a great honor and privilege conferred upon me.”
. At a quarter before 2 P. M. finished my Essay on Philosophy and Religion.
I thank God for this, for many infirmities, some physical, some moral, have threatened to interrupt my work.
It is done, and if it is all I am to do, I am ready to die, ”